what do you expect?
do you really think is over one night? sorry to say but our friendship was entirely FAKE. my friends are your friends..did you not think that what you say wouldnt come back to me? im completely offended about everything you say...and the funny thing is that you texted me after all this time..but i yet to hear you say sorry..to me..not to terra and not about terra. but for you, saying sorry for how you acted.

i dont know how else to put it, but like this:
you talk shit about ME
you talk shit about my family
you talk shit about my my relationship with my boyfriend
you talk shit about my other friendships
you talk shit about innocent people in restaurants/public places
you talk shit about fat people/ugly people..most of them you dont even know.
...you talk shit about everything i believe in (all of the above...my entire life..excepty the people in restaurants and people god maybe isnt so proud of hah!) and when i say talk shit i mean major shit. i hear it all and most of the time you say it to me...

ok im not saying im a saint. im not saying sean is a saint or you or remi or our friends or surprisingly all the boys in the circles we have. we all talk shit..but theres a limit and theres a line and not only do you cross that line but it gets to a point where youre like the energizer bunny..

so about new years eve. you were drunk i was sober..i see things a whole lot faster than you think (hallolween too..i wasnt drinking...im not going to get into halloween) i watched you plant yourself behind terra to mouth to the blonde girl how much you hate terra and then apparently she didnt see you so in order to let her know this dumb fact you go over to her to whisper in her ear to make sure this girl, who has no idea what terra's name is, know how much you hate her. terra and i go pee walk down the stairs and you eye terra like youre trying to burn a whole in her head. terra scott and i go out side to drop something off @ the car. WERER ON THE STREET i hear your voice talking. so i go stand by the kitchen window where your standing where you waited till terra left the room you waited till you had your little audience and then it was time..your mouth was running like no other, i stood there and heard it all. the thing that pissed me off is that your trying to put this hate into the other girls heads, the same hate you apparently have for terra about some drama terra MIGHT have in her life that you arent involved in that she did not bring you in, that is really non of your business. she has done nothing to you she dosent know you you dont know her. you simply have a first immpression and something about ambers grad lunch. if youre going to use that as your reason to HATE someone...damn.

well i guess i can see where you might not like her mmmm...maybe cuz youve been cheated on? but you apparently have forgiven that person..so lets talk hypocrate:

the fact that you call savannah a racist and how much you hate how shes says nigger (so do i). but in our same conversation you said to me but "sorry i HATE mexicans, every single one of them" and you wewnt on about what it is you didnt like about them....we were at the corn maze and there was a guy in the parking lot and he had a walkie talkie and it went off, and i heard you say under your breathe "god i fucking hate mexicans" i hear it...

actually i'll stop...theres more, but i just deleted it. if you really wanna know i will tell you. i really dont want you to think this is a bash on you. but i do have more thats bothering me..

..so no, my feeling arent silly, & this isnt over one night.
and its not that we arent friends, but i honestly think you have some soul searching to do, after all your turning 24..


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just outta curiosity, where are you getting your info? of Terra cheating and going on this shopping spree? i just wanna know between me and you.

I HAVE NEVER SAID I HATE ANY RACE! do not turn this into me participating..YOU HAVE SAID YOU HATE ALL MEXICANS, that is a fact! and I'm not saying this, or getting offended that you hate Mexicans because Sean's a lil mexi. i hardly see him as Mexican..look, deny it. i don't care. but i really know what you have said. what you may have gotten confused with when you say i have made the same comments in a conversation we have had together, is that i have said nigger (we were talking about Savannah being over excessive with the word and how disgusting it was..and i agree, and when i say i have said that word it was in no way putting myself in the same shoes as her or saying its OK for me to say it but not her. i was talking about over excursiveness..just like you.) ..but when i have said nigger in the past i don't direct it towards black people its is either something that slipped or a figure of speech in being frustrated..no matter what, me saying what i just said is "your point exactly" your going to take this as me hating black people, because you're reading this, not listening to my voice. i remember this convo like it was yesterday..

it seems like your whole argument is about Terra. which i knew was going to prob happen. the reason why I'm so mad, is the fact that you are a lil extreme with the shit you talk. AND NO I'M NOT INNOCENT! i do laugh at odd looking people but i DO NOT degrade them in any way. i DO laugh at fat people, but its not because i hate them, but because they probably have poor choice in their wardrobe...mpst pf the time i laugh or chuckle because either you or savannah bring it up. yes i se it yes i people watch. you on the other hand HATE fat people, you HATE ugly people. these are things that come of your mouth. Deny it. its just funny how your "best friends" are fat...

don't call me out on my morals Kim..if you wanna talk morals...LETS FUCKING TALK! I DO NOT believe in (if) Terra cheating..but who cares! you stick up for remi, because you have too. i don't blame you. but your comment about it just so happens that Terra's my friend and so, yeah I'm sticking up for her. you're doing the same with remi. you just see it differently. it is what it is..cheating is cheating! right?????? I'm also not sticking up for Terra. what she does is her business and I'm not getting involved. i got mad because you were talking shit, the situation, the hate you were putting into the other girls heads. the cowardliness you have to wait till shes not around. i saw it. you had some dirt...and you went with it. that's the sad thing. you let her get to you sooooo bad! get over it.

...so yeah, back to morals. i really don't have to "examine" my morals. I'm not a drunk sleaze who swings with my boyfriends best friend..and viscera for remi. the sickest thing of it all is your lil Randevu was with a brother and sister...that's fucking sick...i don't hang on my friends boyfriends. i don't make friends with my friends enemies. I.E. that girl Andrew starbuck is fooling around with while the love of her life is off somewhere in the army or something. i don't know how sandi feels about her, amber said Sandi hasn't said anything yet, but it is what it is. another I.E. is Jackie. Jackie and amber had a lil tiff awhile ago, and i say this because amber told me herself, it was really low of you to get extra buddy buddy with her around that time. how bout you putting up half naked pictures of your self on the Internet? how bout you tongue other girls? almost everything you do is against my morals! what you do is your business...we still are friends..how do you feel about drugs? hate em? you'll never do em? well remi has. and you've made him stop smoking pot. Ive stopped smoking pot for Sean I'm not hurting from it, there was and still is more to life then weed and ive never looked back and I'm sure remi feels the same way. i want you to know i am in no way bashing on you making remi stop smoking pot. its just a point. Remi came to me and Sean and said he was thinking about selling E cuz he needed money. he said him and yourself had this convo. i guess you said no? i don't remember. i guess he has a lot of connections. selling E is completely against my morals. I'm sure yours too. but doing E is EXTREMELY against my morals. remi has done it...so have some of your friends in PHX. they have gone up to remi asking if he could get some drugs for them. so remi says. I'm not saying your friends do it on a regular daily basis, but then again i don't know them..i mean..i just so happens they're your friends and remi is your boyfriend....right Kim? but as far as morals are concerned A LOT of my friends go against my morals..its called deal with it be their friends or don't..but if you choose not to be their friends, leave em alone! i cant change people and neither can you.

don't bring amber into this. but i can say my fair share of amber, if you want to bring her into this... i know she was upset. she knows why i didn't go. YOU DON'T! i was sicker then a dog. Sean pulled me outta bed & i was crying i was so sick! i had opened at Starbucks that day and last but not least i was going to start my period. i was on my way there after Roberts and i caught myself falling asleep driving. i thought it was best to get some rest before i get any sicker(i don't know if you ever heard of why i was sick, but someone at work left a dirty towel in the coffee urn and it was the most rankest thing Ive ever experience in my life. i cant even describe the taste it left in my mouth. dirty towel coffee? ick. lol. but i was sitting by the toilet everywhere we went. i was sick and i wasn't joking around)..but i wanted to go and at least say congrats to amber so i went earlier to her party..i was feeling even sicker @ jays. and to be completely honest the last straw, the last thing to make me say "yeah, me going down town to mope because i wasn't feeling good - wasn't worth it" WAS YOU! alot of people were really offended by how you acted in someone Else's house. that was a parents house, and you got mad because no one planed on going to Level, no one dressed for Level and no one wanted to go to Level. it was a Friday night, which means cover and very expensive drinks! but you don't know that cuz you've never been..i still dont know why you got mad, and to tell you the truth you would have had a miserable time, that place is where the "$30,000 millionaires" go, and we know you cant just brush it off your shoulders, ignore them, and have a good time. these people with "money" would have gotten under your skin and made your blood boil because of the way they hold themselves, the way they dress, do their makeup. everything about people with money ticks you off. but there you were walking around srceaming "FUCKING FIGURE IT OUT THEN!" and people were trying in a polite way to ask you why you were acting so weird, your response "I'M THE FUCKING PRINCESS, I CAN ACT THE WAY I WANT!!!" Kim, you're turning 24, shouldn't you drop the princess act? it makes you look really immature. and in this situation it was not only disturbing, uncalled for, but extremely trashy. i really wanted to go back in the house and apologize to jay's mom, and his entire family..but it was your actions, you should have. most peoples way of dealing with your offensiveness is just to ignore you. i, on the other had just pull myself away from it. if you wanna act like that my choice is just to not be around you.

i think its funny how you can say yeah you're judgmental, yeah you're a bitch, and you're A OKAY with it. again like i said, I'M NOT INNOCENT AND I'M NOT A SAINT. i have already said this. but i will tell you this, since i have met you and since i have been with Sean, i have grown mostly in the last year.. Sean has taught me a tremendous amount of who i really am, and what i shouldn't be. so yes i have been judgmental and i have been territorial with new people who come into the circles and i have been a bitch. and i am working on it. I'm 22 years old and realizing what life is really about and how to constantly better myself. its not something that fixes itself over night. so yeah I'm not a saint. you're turning 24 and walking around saying your judgmental and a bitch and being okay with it. and it all shows. grow up. own up to your actions, you said you do. DO IT! you're really beating around the bush, especially when you say your not going to defend yourself on everything. because you know you have talked shit about everything i have stated. and your think its OK. you've said it to my face and I've heard it from other people. i am NOT going to bring the people to you who are "full of shit" because i highly doubt you're going to tell off amber and tell her shes full of it. but you know her number.

as far as you talking shit about me, outta anger and frustration..i highly doubt anything of what i have done was directed to you or have anything to do with you. its you simply putting you nose where it doesn't belong and saying things that are really inappropriate. like me being "materialistic" that when ward accidental called you Lauren your response was "I'm not Lauren, I'm not materialistic!" i don't know where you get off calling me materialistic. you are in the same boat as i was in a yr ago. credit card debt. every time Ive hung out with you since you've moved back, we somehow end up at the mall and you're shopping and at the register saying i don't need this i should pay my credit card. or how you spend 15$ on a dog toy from muttropolis..or saying how remi doesn't know about your debt. do us both a favor and tell him. he just might be able to help manage your money with you...and not to mention have a different perspective of me. I DO NOT go shopping everyday. I DO think there is more to life then the little expensive things i have. but i have em because i work hard for them and i deserve them. just as well as amber. i don't see how amber can walk around with her coach and Tiffany's and D&G shades and its OK. i don't see it. i dont think you've taken in consideration you materialism..your's maybe everything you buy from old navy and target and mutropolis. but for amber and I we can easily buy a pair of 80$ shoes we know wont be our everyday shoe. our taste is a lil more expensive then yours. it doesnt make us materialistic.

there's maybe something else you've said about me, maybe in regards to the corn maze? Sean myself and you..i dont even remember why you were even there, we went ALL the way back to my house. to i guess switch cars, why we needed Sean's dads monster truck is beyond me. but while i was on the phone i remember being at Amber's and Sean saying we were going to go home so i could shower. i NEEDED to shower. i wasn't planning on being at ambers all day. i wasn't planning on going to the corn maze, i had to work. what that day consisted of, was Sean and i going out of our way and making our whole day apart of helping ward and amber. i wanted to go home to change, wash my butt, and brush my fucking teeth. was that too much to ask? we were already at the house. it could have taken me 5 mins in and out of the shower. but instead you come into my house as a guest..and be belittled me. tell me what i can and can not do! and for that..FUCK YOU! you wouldn't appreciated if you were in my situation. i want you to remember where you were..MY HOUSE. that's what pissed me off most. then to hear you...and everyone else. I'm sure amber too. whatever...were making remarks about me having a leash around Sean. why you would think i have a leash around Sean and not your self around remi or amber's around ward, i still dont get. there's so much that you have remi do. BUT I HAVE NEVER SAID YOU HAVE A LEASH AROUND REMI! i swear!
one more thing..the day amber yourself and i went to park place mall...you might remember. we left the mall because you had to get home because it was past 6 or whatever time you told remi you were going to get home..and you were on the phone with him the whole car ride home babying him. and we dropped off amber..and you were off the phone by this time you had told me you would never be able to date Sean cuz hes too much like a girl..i agreed. He can be, BUT NEVER LIKE THE WAY REMI ACTED THAT NIGHT! Ive always wanted to tell you how much your little comment hurt me and pissed me off. dont go around dating a winny sissy and call my boyfriend a girl! FYI Sean only knew we were at the mall..he didn't know what we were doing what time we were getting home, what the next plan was for the night, and he was at home waiting patiently and always will cuz Sean is not like that. Sean is by far not a girl compared to remi..and this night when it was just us three girls at the mall, it wasn't the first nor the last time remi will act like that.

i haven't been a flake lately. Ive been busy. Ive been working two jobs, looking for a car and helping my family out. that's in general. if you're talking between me and you..i have on a personal level chosen to pull myself away from you. its not being flaky.

..what if i told you Savannah was pregnant...but not to judge yet, and still remembering your lil bro knocked his GF...is she still expecting?..who would you jump to first to judge. not your brother, hes family. that's different.

i can tell you to your face every single thing i have said to you. these are my thoughts my opinons and MY FEELINGS. if i cant stand by them in person thats sad. im not the type of person to call and say " we need to talk, lets get coffee" this isnt laguna beach or the hills. lol you know? when i can hang out with you is when i can. i am busy, and since everything has happend i have been non stop busy.

im not judging you. im stating a point that aparently you see past and make it seem like your being judged. the point i was trying to make was with savannah, who even knows if shes really pregers, but if she was, you would jude her and talk shit. i wasnt putting them in the same class or saying your bro is just as fucked up as savannah. its the mere you pick and choose who you judge no matter if its the same situation or not.

you telling me my morals have to be examined was uncalled for kim. so me pointing out how fucked up your morals may look to me, isnt. you making out with ryan was uncalled for, in my opinion. the point i was trying to get to was if thats the kinda relationship you and remi want, so be it. i cant control it, you or your relationship. and i dont judge you in our friendship on it. THATS THE POINT. you i guess didnt see that..

you still havent told me who you heard about terra from, or a sorry for how you acted on new years eve.

it seems to me that we are niether nor friends at this time. i have already made the decision and stand by it that neither sean or myself will be attending your bday. thats just me respecting the situation between the 2 of us. keeping the distance is whats needed.


so if you really wanna talk, call me.